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July 26, 2010

Fun= Guilty

I always feel guilty when the kids and I are having a fun day. Yesterday we went to a theme park for the day. We are a big theme park family so it was weird not having hubby there. My daughter kept saying-"we need to come back here with dad". 

I feel sometimes like its not fair that we are having a good time while he is over there. I know it is silly but it still is a feeling I have. He loves us having good times and tells me to have fun BUT I still feel guilty. I hate for us to be laughing when he calls because I don't want him to feel like he is missing out and get sad. I always tell him we are only having 75% of fun. He completes our 100%.



I'm a silly girl with silly feelings. LOL  The key to this deployment has been to keep real busy but then we are doing so many things with out him that it kind of bums you out.  But then we have lots of things to look forward to doing together when he returns.

10 comments:

Chantal said...

I feel guilty when I'm with friends when he calls and we're doing something fun. He doesn't mind, though I feel like I should just be sitting at home waiting for him. It's silly and I don't do that anyway, but it's the way it is!

It's Something Beautiful said...

I feel the same way at times. When I got back from vacation last week, Mister was kind of sad he wasn't able to come with. It makes me feel guilty at times, be he understands that we will make many more memories when he comes back home. Try not to be sad about it - he'll be home soon!

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mowenackie said...

Deployment is such an emotional rollercoaster, isn't it? It can be exhausting!

I'm Tatom said...

I am the same way! Even feel guilty when buying clothes or anything else I really don't need. Thinking of the man in the middle of the sand sitting there bored. But then I think he wouldn't want me to be sitting here doing nothing and miserable.

Mr. Superman & Mrs. S. said...

Awe hopefully you'll be able to fill that last 25% soon!

B. said...

i know what you mean. it sucks wanting to do things to keep your mind from going crazy, but doing those things you guilty that you are kinda enjoying yourself... catch 22.

addicted2shius said...

I hear ya. It sucks having fun when you know they're out there wishing they were with you. Sorry hun! But at the same time, you and the kids gotta do stuff to pass the time. And we all know our hubbies just want us to be happy and worry free every now and then.

Ali said...

I know exactly how you feel. I'm hesitant to tell him I've had a great or fun day. Instead I usually say "today was a good day." Slight difference. The guilt is something I wasn't expecting nor was I warned about.

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Carmen said...

I feel the same way when he is gone. I hate to have a really good time and not have him next to me. But pretty soon he will be coming back home and you will get to do all those things again =)

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