Well, I think I am at that part of deployments where I am into the groove. Kind of used to him being gone now and just living day by day. Trying not to really take the time to think about him being gone. I keep us pretty busy so that our days go by quick. Anything to help time fly. Our daughter is on a traveling softball team so she has tons of games.
Even though we keep busy it never fails that when night time comes it gets hard. I am sick of sleeping with an empty space next to me. Sometimes when he calls just his voice makes me cry. It's hard when I have a daughter who is real sensitive so I can't show in front of her that I am sad. I think I just kept letting it build up and then one day I lost it in the shower. Not a good thing. I felt like I just needed a real good crying to let it out. Unfortunately I just couldn't get it out. I had lots of streaming tears but it was a weird feeling of knowing there was so much there but it wouldn't release itself. I just wanted it to be over with so I could move on.
On a good note- another month is down. :-)
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Lord grant me the greatness of heart to see,
The difference in duty and his love for me.
Give me the understanding to know,
That when duty calls he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
To fill the time when he is away.
And Lord, when duty is in the field,
Please protect him and be his shield.
The difference in duty and his love for me.
Give me the understanding to know,
That when duty calls he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
To fill the time when he is away.
And Lord, when duty is in the field,
Please protect him and be his shield.
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9 comments:
You are a strong person, keep going. I've been there and I know how hard it is. It's always great to hear from them and talk to them but then you just have to say goodbye all over again. I tend to hold things inside and then it bottles up and erupts like a volcano. Remember, today is not one more day without him, it's one day closer to when he comes home!
I totally feel you on that one. it is so hard at night
Thanks for the anniversary wishes! I appreciate them. I am so not looking forward to my hubbys deployment next month but oh well.. nothing I can do about it. LOL
I hope your months apart fly by and that he returns home to you safely.
You're so strong! Come what may and love it right? Always here :)
I know just how you feel! We've got 4 months down and 2 to go! I am finally used to him being gone, but I'm packing out to PCS from England back to the US in a month, so it's going to be CRAZY! I will keep you in my prayers! I always cry in the shower too! My girls would lose it if I cried in front of them. :)
Aww sometimes we all just need a good cry. Sounds like you are doing a good job being strong for your daughter, hope everything continues to go well, and that time flies until he comes home!
i agree the beginning is hard, the end is hhard but then it seems normal in the middle. but the nights. I never get use to be alone at night. the house is quiet and i realize i am going to bed alone again
One month down, that's great! The shower is my favorite place to "let go," too.
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